Even death wont do this love apart :')

Assalamualaikum .

Its been a super tough-tough-tough day for me lately . I could never imagine even in my wildest dream about this . Tapi apa boleh buat , ajal dan maut ditangan Allah . Sampai sekarang , I'm still in a very terrible shock ! Saya sendiri tidak percaya that I've lost my most beloved father T.T Dah seminggu dah Daddy pergi menyahut seruan Ilahi . *AL-FATIHAH*

Semua ni diluar jangkaan semua orang . Semua terkejut and for sure , saya peling sedih tengok my Mummy . Dia still nangis time malam and when she's on the phone with her friends . Saya kesian Mummy . So macam semua orang bagitau saya , I have to be the toughest and must pretend that I'm okay . But only Allah knows how its killing me so bad inside . Tiap masa , saya rasa macam mau menangiss , meraungg and all . I dont even think that I could go back to old self macam dulu . Happy go lucky *PERASAN* , too friendly and suka ketawa . Sekarang , macam semua tu sudah tiada and if ada pun , its all fake *ISWEAR* Kadang-kadang saya rasa macam tiada harapan sudah mau hidup , dulu benda ni happens dekat my friends and all saya just mampu nasihat and hope they'll move on . Tapi bila it happens to me sekarang , now I knew how hard it be in this shoes . Tapi , sekarang ni , my beautiful Mummy , my brother and all my big family lah pemangkin semangat saya untuk terus hidup . Serious , its not easy and never will . Daddy left us so sudden and sampai sekarang saya belum percaya . Saya anggap jak daddy sekarang ni sedang outstation macam selalu and one day dia akan balik . But I dont know when is that ONE DAY :'( I really really miss him . 

Daddy ada sakit . He suffered a heart problem . Dia sudah angiogram on the early month of February and my Daddy was a strong man . He managed to go through the operation and the next day he was be able to be sent home already :) I'm so proud of him . Time kat rumah , Daddy banyak berehat . Kami pergi open house lagi , on Chinese New Year's eve , kami ada buat family gathering as we used to dekat rumah my aunty aka my Dad's sister di Kg Bakut Nongkolud Tuaran , Sabah *SODETAILLOL* Then malam tu Daddy happy sangat , he ate his favourite dishes and kami semua laughed at our stupid jokes and telling stories and about 12 O'clock kami balik sebab Daddy have to take his medicines . So kami pun balik . Then sampai rumah kami tengok TV lagi . Komen-komen tu movie and all . So the next moring kami pergi rumah my aunty yang semalam tu sebab ada open house . Semua heran kenapa kami buat open house one the 1st day of Chinese New Year sebab we usually buat on the 4th or 5th . Tapi time tu memang tida syak anything lagi . So the next day macam hari-hari biasa . Cuma bukan macam hari kami selalunya dekat KK , usually kami pegy SHOPPINGGG 24 JAM . Tapi this time , kami banyak spent masa dekat rumah . Sebab Daddy banyak tidur , dia kan penat :'/ So bila malam baru kami one family jalan pegy One Borneo kami tengok wayang one family T.T Sebab Daddy cakap dia tau kami boring di rumah the whole day . So , from Monday till Thursday we kept doing the same routines . Kami pegi breakfast pagi then balik rumah Daddy tidur sampai petang malam baru jalan . Ferry kami balik Labuan hari Jumaat jam 8 pagi . So kami kena jalan awal pegy Menumbok . Around 3 am tu kami jalan . Time Daddy tukar baju tu , rantai dia putus . Then sana saya macam tsentak sikit tapi saya buat biasa jak . So the whole 3 hours on road mummy and daddy ganti-ganti drviving . While my brother tidur and I'm with my MP3 . Saya pun pelik time tu , daddy marah-marah saja . Semuaa tidak kena di mata dia . Tp kami semua pun steady saja lah . Sampai kat rumah (Labuan) Mummy pegy bilik saya dia cakap daddy xmau pegy clinic sebab dia ada appointment dengan doctor . So 30 minutes macam tu , my adik bagitau yang my dad dah ready mau jalan . Then my mum suru kami stay rumah kasi bersih rumah . Bila dorang dah balik around 4 macam tu , saya sama akeem di depan pintu sambut dorang balik (VERY ODD) then daddy cakap "Girl boleh kerja sudah di Parkson , sebab doctor cakap daddy okay suda" Then saya cakap I dont want sebab I rather stay dekat rumah *HAKHAKS* LOL -//-

So bila saya naik pegy bilik online . Tiba-tiba mummy masuk bilik dia cakap Daddy mau mandi so bercerita lah kami . Tidak sampai 5 minutes , saya keluar bilik and pegy master room mau cari potong kuku . Then bila saya masuk tu bilik its so hot ! Saya heran why daddy tak on kipas or aircond . And , jantung saya serious tercabut and I'm lost with words bila I saw blood in the toilet . Then saya pegy my room and I told my mum . Then mummy teriak2 suruh my adik ambil tukul . And kasi pecah tu pintu . My dad was unconcious that time . And my mum nangis-nangis suruh call ambulance . Then bila dah call , SAYA TERANGKAN SATU PERSATU ALAMAT KAMI . 

"I NEED AN AMBULANCE NOW ! THIS IS AN EMERGENCY . C18 TAMAN PERUMAHAN RANCA-RANCA..."

Saya call tu dua kali mau bagitau alamat sebab my Mum can barely talk that time . So , operator tu balik-balik cakap ON THE WAY ! Macam lah rumah kami tu 10 jam baru sampai . And my mum nangis-nangis and said "Mana ambulance ? Daddy masi ada nadi lagi" OMG , bila teringat balik time tu rasa macam my heart kena siat-siat then kena tuang garam ok *HIPERBOLA* Tp seriously it kills me . Then ramai sudah staff daddy datang , my neighbors datang di luar TAPI AMBULANCE BELUM JUGA DATANG . F-est moment -.- Kami mau hantar pegi hosp but that stupid ambulance cakap on the way on the way . ON THE WAY HOTAK KAU ! And saya tak pernah call orang marah-marah teriak2 macam tu . Tapi siapa indaa gila time-time mcm tu kan ?  Then bila ambulance datang 50 MINUTES LEPAS KENA CALL . I repeat , 

LIMA PULUH MINUTES !

Then my mum marah dia cakap "Saya sudah check dia ,CPR and all , kamu inda payah check ! Kenapa kamu lambat ?! Ambil stretcher now !" Then orang tu pun thegeh-hegeh lagi . Then my mum pegy ikut ambulance while saya di rumah kemas rumah and all . And receiving phone calls from semua orang *BAJETFEMES* LOL-.- Then about 30 minutes later ,my Uncle suru kami tukar baju and ikut dia pegy hosp . Dalam kereta tu , my uncle cakap "Walau apa pun tjadi , terima saja k ? Ada hikmah semua ni" and time tu memang saya dah rasa lain and I started to cry so so bad . Bila sampai hospital , kami pegy wad emergency and I saw my mum crying . And my aunty who was on duty at that time hugged me and said "Sabar k girl?" Then my mum hugged me and cry so bad . My heart was pumping so fast and when I saw behind the curtain was my dad . I ran towards my dad and I saw he was so pale and then I knew . The only words that came from my mouth was "Daddy tiada sudah ?" Then my aunty hugged me and suruh saya banyak sabar . And by then , I knew that I've lost my father . Not for 10 years or 100 years but forever . Ya Allah , ujian ni terlalu berat for me and I dont know berapa lama saya boleh bertahan . OMG , kesian adik saya , baru form 2 and my mum pun . Serious , I never type and cry like this . 

"ALLAH SAYANG KEPADA HAMBANYA YANG TIDAK MENYALAHKAN TAKDIR.."

I'm speechless and entah lah . Its so hard for me . Luckily I have my awesome families and friends with me . I am the luckiest person on earth for having them in my life . I dont know what else to say and FYI , there's so much to tell ! Tapi I cant even stand myself with this sobbing and tears so maybe on one fine day I'll share it here . 

To all readers , sedekahkan Al-Fatihah to my beloved Daddy . He's in peace now . InshaAllah :)

To my daddy : I dont know if you'll be able to read this but I miss you and I love you no matter what . There's so much I haven't tell you or even do to you . There's so many more and semua tu tak kesampaian kan ? Its too early for you to leave us . Tapi semua ni takdir Allah and there's nothing I can do about it . Daddy , may your soul rest in peace and I promise saya akan selalu doakan daddy . And I'll take care of mummy as best as I could . Your dream , I'll make it come true . InshaAllah . Wait for us and inshaAllah one day we'll meet again . The four of us . I really-really miss you . With love , your daughter . 

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ! :)

Assalamualaikum

Hai peeps , sorry for membangaskan blog *LEWLS*

Well , its been quite a harsh time for me lately . Well , my Daddy kena heart attack and its been a very tough day not only for me and my mum but also to whole my family members and relatives . And not to forget my Dad's friends . And to those yang tolong bg support and all , thanks a lot and biarlah Allah yang balas everything :) *CEHWAH*

Well , HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR I wish to all Chinese and to anyone laah sapa-sapa yng mau kena wish tu :) Hehehehe . Now we're having a open house dekat my Aunt's house and ramai laaa orang datanggg and I'm so exhausted *MACAMLAHBUATKERJA* XP Hehehehe . Ada laa juga tolong-tolong angkat tray kosong kasi ganti dengan yg ada lauk . Apeker . Hehehehe . Em , okay merepeks and taktau mau ckp apa lg . 

Hmm , bout me and HIM :) We're getting much-much okay . Even though kadang-kadang I got jealous with him . Ya laa , girls :P Hehehe , tp biarlah , mcm dia ckp , trust is important kan ? :) He's livingin a U's life so mmg if dia ada kelas tu , kdg2 jaa kmi texting . Tp if malam , lepas hbis Isyak , then he'll text me :) Dia ni sweet >< Tp ada masaaa dia mmg inda laa , mmg bikin sakit hati . Hahaha , biasa laah tu kan ? :P Lols . Em , tapi apapun , I'm just go on withthe flow . InshaAllah . Just pray for us lol . 

Love . Hugs . Kisses . 

Bell :)

Le Confession :)

Assalamualaikum :)

Well hello :) This girl up here would have something to say :) Hahaha . 

Apakan merepek petang-petang ni *BURPS* hehehe . Well , bila orang dah tanya what is my actual status ? Haha , so the lawak babe . And actually and definitely I'm still single and sebelum sampai masanya I'm onto something , so sampai time tu lah saya single :) Hahaha . *TAK PUAS HATI ? BERAMBUS*

Well , kalau mau cakap tentang hati dan perasaan *CEHWAH* my heart is taken :) Proudly taken . By someone , that I think it is better to be left unknown :) Jujurnya , I'm happy and so proud that I knew him . We never met , F2F but we just text and text and text . Calling ? Haha , never . So not me . Pernah laah tapi dulu-dulu . Tu pun just about 2-3 minutes if I'm not mistaken :) Hahaha . Saya happy kenal dia ni , sebab I think he understands me well enough even dia cakap he don't . And actually dia sangat pandai memujuk even dia cakap dia tak pandai mau pujuk orang . And , dia matang . Tu lah yang penting :) See , saya ni tak matang . Langsung , pandai lah juga jadi matang , suddenly tu XP Haha , tapi adalah sangat jarang okay . Hehehe . Tp biarlah , don't ever judge me . You just don't have the rights to do so . 

And , even though kami ni boleh dikatakan TTM , we've discussed about this and kami memang takmau to have any serious relationship sekarang ni . Well , better lah kan ? Couple-break ni , not my type so better prevent kan ? *OSEH* And dia pun ada cakap yang dia belum ready , haha . Saya pun , so better kami macam ni jak . Kawan . And WE WILL GO ON WITH THE FLOW . Bak kata orang , kalau jodoh tak kemana juga tu (: In sha Allah . Kalau dia lah jodoh saya yang sudah tertulis di LohMahfuz *AMBOIH* then , saya terima dengan hati yang terbuka :) Oyeah ! Hehehe . 

So , jangan lah mau cakap saya ni playgirl . Sebab apa ? Ramai minat orang ? Hahaha , its okay for us to have thousands crush lah ! LOLS . Suka orang tu normal , tambirang lah if kau nampak orang hensem or perempuan cantik kau tidak terdetik SIKIT PUN rasa suka . Kan ? Please , we're humans maa . Saya mengaku , saya memang cepat suka orang . Tp it doesn't mean that I'm a playgirl . Playgirl ni usually yang couple ramai dalam satu masa . Well obviously me ? Hahaha , don't make stupid jokes peeps , I don't even have one . So ? Haha , maybe you can just call me an easy-melt girl . Haha , can't deny . Memang pun . Tapi even I like lots of people tapi before I go to bed , memang there's only one person in mind :) 

So , you should just never questioned about my status . Its my right to keep it up , down or low . LOLS . *MEREPEKS* and and , to those yang fikir saya ni cepat sangat suka orang tu , up to you babes , sukahati lah kau cakap apa pun . Sometimes bila kita talks bout people , it doesn't define them , it defines you :) Hahaha , semua dah ada akal , we're not animals so boleh fikir logic kan ? HAHA , thanks for reading :*

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Bonjour :)

Assalamualaikum :)

Hello peeps ! Well , lamaaa sudah tidak post kan ? Well , teramat lahh busy mengalahkan Barrack Obama okay . Hehe :3 Lols . Well , finally ! Saya lulus comp test (: Please don't say that I'm stupid , yaa I know comp test tu senang gilaa what-the-hell . HAHA , I know and I admit memang actually senang pun . Tapi well you know me , dah gelabah sangat , so semua jadi tak betul *CEH TAIK* Hahaha . So kesimpulannya Bell , you should study dari awal . Bila my second test tu , baru lah struggle konons nya . LOL . Memang menyesal , like why on earth boleh failed ! HAHA , but luckily by the second test I managed to pass it . Alhamdulillah ;)

And apa lagi mau cakap ah ? Ohyaaa , two days ago Daddy collapsed :( Dia hypo Mummy cakap , which means kurang sugar dalam badan . Okay , kesian kan my Daddy ? But don't worry , my Dad's a strong man . Hehehe :) Well , actually kalau orang yang kandungan gula dia tidak normal dalam badan (which means KURANG than the actual rate) fore example , dia kena makan like every two hours . I mean , bukanlah makanan berat . Sandwiches or maybe an oatmeal would do :) Same case here with my Dad , dia kena makan tpi he refuse to . Lols . HAHA , tapi lepas my Mum cakap and give some advice then I think its gonna be oooo-kay :) Haha , in sha Allah . My Mum pun already twice dia pegy airport tukar flight sebab mau jaga Daddy . And me , which my flight is tomorrow . Maybe I can't go tomorrow . Maybe the next day would do :) In sha Allah . Haha , please pray for my dad :) THANKS !

And about my life , Hahaha . Dying in boredom I guess -.- Sangatlah boring di rumah . But when I try to make myself entertain *LOL , mcm terdesak bunyinya* I can barely enjoy this erghh stay-at-home-doing-nothing thing . Hahaha . I admit , sometimes I do have some fun being here , at my home , my room with my laptops . Haha , and my Hero would be texting me sometimes if he's in the UM's hall and he's kinda sleeping , then , he'll text me just to forbid him from sleeping . Haha .And kadang-kadang pun , my friends ada juga yang call and we talk talk talk like for hours . 

Enough mumbling . And I forgot to share *show off* Hakssshakss . Hehehe , well my DELF A2 , I got 70.9 ! Woooohooooo >< Hahaha , seriously even me , myself , I can't believe that I actually reached that numbers . I mean , I sat for A2 last year because I failed during the previous year lols and and not aiming to get a 70.9 I just aimed to get credits . Seriously no lie ! Haha . But , maybe dah rezeki and I'm on cloud 9 that day when Madam Anis told me about it . Alhamdulillah :) Hehehehe . Ohh kepda yang tak tahu apa tu DELF A2 . Well , kan our school *SM SAINS LABUAN* yg awesome gituw XP Kami ada foreign language . Or should I say , international language . Japan , France and Arabic . Well , France is my choice so kalau dah masuk France punya language , every form 2 kena ambil DELF A1 . Its like a test (?) to get the honourable certificate dari orang kat France sana lah , haha . And it has many benefits time kat U  nanti , In sha Allah :) Hahaha , A1 tu boleh lah senang , perkenalkan diri , jual beli , nombor , mendengar and karangan . Macam tu lah . Bila dah naik A2 , pun sama lah jugaa tapi level diaa up sikit and ada 2 karangan and more strict lah . Haha , tapi level B1 lah yang susah . My batchmates yang lain semua pun ada juga ambil B1 , and time tu , saya baru ambil A2 *tambirang kan ? mengulang bah* Haha . So kami sama-sama lah struggle , time tu lagi exam *padahal time kena bagi masa , tidur* Hahaha . Lols . Biasalah tu budak-budak bhaa . HAHA , apapun . I enjoyed myself learning France :) 

Okay , cukup merepek disitu . Thanks for wasting your time reading this ;D HAHA . Till then , bye !

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Hey , I miss you :')

Assalamualaikum ,

Hey :) Well actually , saya buat post ni because I miss him ! Badly . 

PASUM tengah exam sekarang . So , I told him yang its better if we tak text dulu for a few moments . Well , kesian bah diaa . Saya ni dahlaa kuat merajuk , kuat merepek , cari pasal lagi . Nanti ganggu mood dia study right XD ? Hahaha . So its better if kami tak text dulu , bukan apaa , saya mau dia betul2 focus , its for his own future kan ? If saya gedik , I would like to say OUR FUTURE ! huahuahua XD

Well , tengok lah ni . Tapi udahh ditapiss yeee :P 

AA : Oh serious tak text ? Two weeks ?

Bell : Ya laa , its for your own good .

30 minutes later 

Bell : Are you serious 2 weeks ? No way !

AA : Tp Bell , you yang nak tadi kan ? 

Bell : ..............

AA : Okay fine , 3 days only . Boleh ? 

Hahaha , begitu lah kisahnyaaa . Haish , tu lah mulut saya ni . Tp its okayy , ada himah disebalik apa yang berlaku right ? Every cloud has its silver lining :D Ceh XP Then bermulaa lah saya lonely . Tak text satu hari . Haish , mcam satu tahun okay . Tapi malam semalam he did text me , dia cakap good night XD Hahahaha . Okay , see saya dah start merepeks already :/

To AA : I know you takkan baca my blog ni . Haha , sebab saya rasa you dont even know I have one :P Hehehe . Apa pun , good luck okay ? Do your best ! And pass your exam with flying colours ! Huahua , I'll be here aiting and praying for your success :)

Love . Hug . Kisses .

Bell :)

Ya Allah , panjangkan jodoh mereka :)

Assalamualaikum :)

Well today , someone taught me something . Who ? He's a new friend of mine . We just knew each other this morning . Sounds cool right ? Well , nampak sangat keikhlasan dia dalam berkawan :) I like it liddat ! Well , what I'm about to tell you is , he told me something that no ones ever tell me . Well actually , its something that I barely heard from any person that is on the same age with me . I mean , serioussss , jarang sangat . And maybe ta pernah kot :) And yeay ! He's the first . Okay , what I'm talking about is :

He's engaged !

OMG ! It is so sweet :) I mean , when I asked him , why did he engaged so early and then he said that he wants to take good care of her . Isn't that sweet ? I mean , how many boys like this nowadays ? Its hardly found kan ? And and , it took him months to win this lovely girl's heart . And the girl is also a good-girl-type . Yes , I'm pretty sure :) Well , because she too never fall in love with any person . Maybe even if she does , she didn't express her feeling to the guy :) Ohh so sweet of them ! And , after our SPM examination ended . The girl then confess to him that she also shares the same feeling as he do and the most remarkable part is , she told her parents about it and and and , yeah they got engage :)

Well , it makes me feel like I want to get engage too . HAHAH ! Okay , joking . Its imposibble . For me , because of my family and my parents . Life's complicated right ? Well except for them :) And that guy , really do love her . I can sense it *ceh* Hahahahaha . 

Ya Allah , you've sent me this person to tell me about thigs that I've been dying to know for ages ! And I dont have to google it because he had told me almost everything ! And and , he makes me realized and I'm getting pretty sure that there is no wrong to get engage in a early age :) Really , what's important is , trust between the couples and relationship to our mighty Allah , then , we'll never astray . In sha Allah . Even they say that they'll be too many obstacles ahead but I'm sure they're good enough to overcome everything ! And no worries my friend , my prayers will always be with youu :) May you and her together till jannah :) and so do our friendship . Amin .

P/s : And please make sure that you'll invite me to your wedding XD Haha 

Love . Hugs . Kisses . 

Bell :)

In Sha Allah :)

Assalamualaikummm :)

Salam all :) First of all , sayaa nangis tonight ! Hahahahaa :') Tp I just dont like to annoy others with my problem . So let sayy saya meluah dekat sini jaak :) Almaklumah , blog saya tidak famous so saya rasa tak ramai pun orang akan baca post ni :) Emm , to be honest , today has been an awkward day for me . Especially time malam ni :') Saya sedih , yet I know it the best way . So saya dapat terima dengan hati yang terbukaa . Maybe its too public for me to share it here , saya lebih selesa simpan dlm hati :) Hehehehe . Even tak banyak pun yang mau baca :( Wuwuwuwu sobs . 

Maybe , betul cakap diaa . Kita perlu mulakan hidup baru :) Semua perlu berubah sekarang , to be the better us :) Kan ? Tak salah berubah ke arah kebaikan . Bukan mau berubah kerana orang , tapi untuk kebaikan kita sendiri juga kan ? Saya sokong tindakan seorang kawan saya tu :) Even saya sedih sebab buat masa ni maybe kami tidak akan contact , tp saya percaya diaa buat yang terbaik :) In sha Allah . 

Saya bukan lah orang yang baik , serious . I've made like , tonnes of mistakes . And to all my lovelies , thanks for always be there for me , with me and just me :) Hehe , every time every seconds and every moments I'm with you guys , i'm just being my super self and that is what friends are for :) The world should be jealous for me having an awesome girlfriends like all of you . Sorry for any of my narcastic actions or any involuntary actions and behaviors that is unnecessary and not good . Its just me and I'm learning . And from this one girlfriend of mine , she taught me a lot , even just in one day :) Thanks babe .

What past is past . Yeah , I agree with her . No one starts their life as a perfect person . No one . So biasa laah kita semua mula dari bawah dan kita akan pelan-pelan reach the top right ;) So saya pun mauu ambil kesempatan ni untuk berubah to be a better me . In sha Allah , saya janji saya akan cuba yang terbaik . Amin :) For the people who always supports me through my ups and downs , thanks and may Allah bless uols . Furthermore , saya takut apa akan jadi one day . I'm afraid of losing . Seriously , ya Allah . Janganlah ruin this faithful friendship of ours . I sincerely love this friendship and it is meant for jannah :')

Maybe I should enough mumbling for today . As tomorrow I got lots of errands to do -.- Good night to all . Have a sweet dreams :)

To my dear friend : Dear you , wherever you go or do . I know you're doing it right :) Whatever you do , do it with all your hearts okay ? :) I'll be here waiting and praying the best for you , for me , for all of us . Because this friendship is just so remarkable and amazing :) I know you're doing the right thing . Please take care :)

Love . Hugs . Kisses 

Bell :)

Life is tough so do trust !

Assalamualaikum

Haiii people :) Well , sekarang ni kan , kerjaa saya ni just tanam anggur jaa -.- Boring nak mampus tau tak ? Hishh , sabar jaa laa . Nak kerjaa tp my two beloved parents kata "NO NEED LAH" Yeahh right then now i just sit at home and do nothing ! Tp takpaa , sabar jak laaah :) Maybe and I yakin ada hikmah untuk semua ni :D Hahaha . Emo malam-malam -.-

Well , tajuk post ni pun dah pelikunss sikit right ? Yaah , its all about trust . I'm on my wayy falling for this guy , named AA . Its not I dont trust him , tp saya takut IF I DID , one day I'll hurt myself . Yalah , almaklumah , perempuan ni kan lemah . Seriousss eh . Cepat cair . Hahaha . Am I talking about myself ? Yaa , I guess so :p Em , let see . Dia tak pernah cakap yang dia love . Sebab dia cakap LOVE IS A ONE BIG WORD . Oh , yaa too big . But , cara diaa mcm he really do :D Hahaha *perasanperasan* Biarlaah , mau perasan pun d blog saya sendiri kan ? :D Hahahaha :') 

Eh , tiba-tiba saya inda jadi mau ulas pasal benda ni . Maybe betul lah dia cakap , sy ni suka separuh-separuh . Well babe , that's so me :D Hahaha . Ehem , malas nak cakap . So just leave it here hanging and questioned k ? HAHA . Yang penting , kepada my Mr AA , if you read this post , I do like you :3 Its awesome if you could turn it to love . ONLY IF YOU CAN . I guess . HAHA . 

Apa pun , thanks and I'm blessed to know you :D

Its just that , saya dah serik and penat disakiti . Ceh , jiwang cam taik . HAAHA , tp I'm serious there okay ? Kbaii

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Living in boredom -.-

Assalamualaikum .

Haiiiiiiiii , dah jarang post . Im busy . Yet not really actually . Just feeling dannnggg bored these days . I've wasted with doing nothing . Absolutely nothing . Work ? I want to but my parents wont let me . I dont know why . I dont want to ask and dont want to mess up my head with such issue .

Life's getting much better . I guess ? HAHA . New year , all new laah bhaa :P LOL . Well , I went to visit my beloved school yesterday . And it was amazing ! Haha :D I miss them all ! The teachers , my schoolmates , my brothers and sisters there . All my juniors are so awesome ! Hahaha :D I miss them a lot . 

I MISS SCHOOL .

Become speechless by then . Okay , bye -.-

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Alhamdulillah .

Assalamualaikum .

Thank you Allah , it is such a relief ! :)

Dearest earthlings , I would like to share my happiness to all ! Hahaha , not to show of people , if you do think so ,then just get lost you bastard !

You know that I'm not a good girl right ? Im being honest , I'm mean and sometimes my actions could make people around me get so annoyed :P Hahaha . But , that's just me and only true friends will accept it right ? :)

Well , during the holidaysss , I got a harsh time with some of the people who are an issue in my life and that fight of ours had burden my day . I'm feeling down day by day . But alhamdulillah , I managed to pass through . Even its a hard time for me at first , with all my patience-ness that I drew all over my heart , I could stay calm and breath like normal . And maybe Allah have heard my wishes , first it was this guy and I called him as F . He said sorry to me and we're back to be friends again . Thanks*

Next , she is a beautiful VVIP in my life and she sent me text to apologize and to start a new flip between the two of us . And I said yes . Why ? Frankly , her presence in my life is still wanted . And forever it will ! :) Thanks*

Last person that I'm having a harsh time is this guy whom I called as C . He chat with me in WhatsApp ! And said sorry and plus , it seems like there' nothing bd has happened between us two . But finally , we managed to be okay again . Thanks*

Well , its not a bad-thing to lie (sometimes) . But , honestly , there's still a few ANIMALS that I really cnt stand with and I think I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM ! Please , go jump off a cliff ? 

Even if they say "Sedangkan nbi pun memaafkan umatnya" Well , sorry to say but Im not a prophet that have a perfect personalities like them during the old days . Im a Ys' generation and hatred is everywhere ! So , it could take time maybe for me to forgive uols . But on this leisure times of mine , thinking about shit-peeps like uols are just a waste of time :)

Till then , adios amigos !

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :) 

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 !

Assalamualaikum ,

Hey world ! Its 2013 ! Hahaha , biarpun lambat but it is acceptable :P Just like I used to said before , late doesn't mean forgotten ! :)

Well , I just hope that this year would bring lucks and charms in my moderate-life . Amin ! Hopping to be blessed in every second I breath . 

LOVE 

I never ask much . I'm being a less-choosy-person already! (I hope it last forever) When ? Since I knew this guy , let's just call him A . This A , we've a special date y'know ! The cute date was 10//11//12 :) Well , its not a couple-date . It was the first time he sent me text :P And since then , we text eeevverryydaayyhh ! :) Its not that I fell in to him . Its not that I'm not falling to him . But , I'm being more precautive nowadays . Because my back-days about this 'love' was such a F-ing memory and should not be refresh-back =W= I'm searching for a person who could understands me well enough ! And mostly , he must be an educated person . Simple :) Hahaha , to my Mr Perfect , its been written our name by the mighty of all , Allah :) And that day will come !

FRIENDSHIP

Who will always be there , listen and understands the silliness that lies on me and accept me for who I'm really are . Seriously , I didn't expect much , just a person whom I can be myself when I'm with them :) And may the genuine friendship of mine these day has been tighten the bonds between us . Ya Allah , let us be friends till jannah :) Amin .

SELF ?

Hahahaha . Frankly , I dont really likes to talk about myself :P Even sometimes I did , but trust me , its an INVOLUTARY actions :D Hahaha . Well , I hope this new year will bring lots of good things in my life . I dont have to mention what . Its better to be left unknown :) Ya Allah , protect my family and I . Dont let us go astray . 

Last but now least , HELLO 2013 ! Please be nice (Y)

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

People ?

Assalamualaikum :)

Haiii :) Hahaha . People ni , macam-macam ragam kan ? Adaa yg baik , ada yg jahat . Even ada juga yang depan baik belakang taik , depan taik belakang baik :)

All I can say is , NORMAL LETTEW :p Hahaha

And orang yang paling baik di duniaa pun indaa kenaa sukaa , you knoww that ? :) Hehehe . Tp kitaa kasi biar jaa laa . Sometimes , the less we care the less we get hurt kan ? So , just let it beee :)

Lama-lama orang diamm jugaaa :) Hehehe .

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Being a Pinoy for 5 days :)

Haiii world !

Well , I am totally enjoying being a Pinoy for 3 days already :) Well , Pinoy is the same with Malaysians , Australians , etc . But Pinoy is for Philipines :) Hahaha . Having a great time with my beloved family here . For 5 days . And will be back to Malaysia this Friday , in sha Allah :) 

Well , saya shopping serious xingat duniaaa kat sini . Well sangat murah ! Damn murah and OMG , no words can best describe the prices of the things here ! Emm , ofcourse lahh , banyak jugaa yang mahal . Tp mostly yang dekat Malaysia harga dia cekik darah yang mau beli pun bfikir 10 kali , but here , OMG , senyum-senyum just hulur tuuu duit :3 Waaawwwh !

SERIOUSLY , I AM OUT OF WORDS :)

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Farizal Marlias :)

Assalamualaikum :)

HAHA , this is Farizal Marlias :)

PHOTO : Credits to Azrit Smith sebab tolong edit :)

Okayy , he's not my boyfriend or even my friend :P Because dia xkenal sayaa :) But the whole Malaysia knew him . He's our most beloved and number 1 goalkeeper ! For Malaysia's team , HARIMAU MALAYA :)

Well , sy pun xtauu why I got sooooo attracted with this guy , well most of the girls (esp) dorang lebih sukaa dekat Khairul Fahmi , goalkeeper dulu :P Tp entahh , sy xrasa pun sy minat kat diaa . But this Farizal , OMG ! Hahaha , because of this guy , sy dahh pandai tengok bolaa and emo-emo pasal bolaa ni ! LOL :)

Entahh , sy tegok cara dia sambut bolaa kan , wow , breath-catching moment ! Hahaha . Memang sy rasaaa dia ni cukupppppppp hebat ! And sngt smart time dia main . 

Well , some people kalau diaa jadi fanatik sngt dekat someone tuu , dia akan tauu asal diaa , full name , umur   , bdayy and all about orang yg dorang minat tuu , tp saya , sy just tauuu nama dia ni Farizal Marlias :) That's all ! Hahaha , and jersi diaa numbe 1 . LOL . Hahaha , and yg lain xtauuu dah . HOHOHO . Mksudnyaa , sy mmg minat dia dlm padang laah :) And diaa sngt-sngt cool ! :) Well , and his face , handsome kan ? Hahaha , okay okay , sy ni mmg gilaa sikit kalau mukaa handsome ni :p LOL . Tp 1 jaaak sy harap and I wish sangat-sangat , sy harapp hati dia ni baikkk :) Andd he's someone yang jujur and baik laa . Haha , amin :) Baruu laah best kan tengok ? Dah laa handsome , famous and hati diaa pun baik . Wallahu'alam .

Hahaha , sy ni indaa pernah-pernah tengok bolaa , tp lepas nampak diaa ni , sy truss jadi minat . LOL . Hahaha , and ada g satu players Harimau Malaya yang sy sukaa tengok jugaa , AMAR ROHIDAN . Tuuu pun okayy jugaa , tp obviously sy minat diaa sebab mukaaa jaa . Hehehe , tp Farizal ni . Fuyoooooooh , hahaha :) Ok shut up bell .

LAST NIGHT TOURNAMENT : OMG , saat mukaa Farizal kena tendang , then I was like -..- What the freak are all these Elephant ! Kaki gajah mcm tuu tak layak di mukaa superstar mcm Farizal :) Cehh , mcm apaa jaak . Hahaha , even dia bagi duaa bolos semalam (I don't care pun tapi orang always pertikaikan benda tu) tp awesome game what ? Dia banyakkk laah sambut bola ! And it was amazing ! And 2 bolos tuu , for me mmg dah nasib , bukan rezeki kot dia nak sambut . And bukan salah diaa jugaak , maybe tlampauu tekejutt kalii , lost concentration and all . Normal laah , Farizal ni manusiaaa . Okay :) Tp gladly , masih ramai jugaa yang tetap sokong diaa even apa yg jd smlm tuu buat orang naik gilaa . Haha , I CRIED  MASA MUKAA DIA KENA TENDANG ! Hahaha , time tuu sy rsaa kesian gilaa tengok mukaa diaa , diaa dah tahan bolaa tuuu as best as he could and it wasss OHHHSEMM ~ Hehehe . 

Haha , okayy enough merepek about this :) Hanyaa sekadar ingin berkongsi minat and just imagine bilaa one day I got a chance to meet him ! Hahaha ! It would be a pleasure :3 Tp I know and I realized yang bjutaa lg Malaysians out there yang minat diaa jugaa , haha . Well , I'm a big fan for him :) To Farizal (Cehhh mcm diaa baca blog saya jaa) *Tp its okayy berangan kan ? WKWKWKWKWK ! Good luck for your next tournament ! Have a happy life :) Hehehe 

OMG , serious saya minat diaa . I adore everything about him .

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

This 12.12.12

Assalamualaikum :)

Hey world . Have this 12/12/12 completely change my life ? 

I felt like I've flipped through a new page of my life :)

Well , today , I hangout with them :) #Precious people in my life . And I've shared few things about what I've been through now . And they're such a good adviser and somehow , it calms me down :') Ya laa , saya sedih jaa selama ni . Biar laa , sy juat malas mau fkir semuaa bendaa yang shouldn't be an issue in my life :P Mmg betul dorang ckp , 'Kawan yang baik ialah mereka yang mempertahankan' :) Sy malas mau cakap banyak , if sampai bila2 orang tetap mau tuding jari dekat saya , I don't care . Biar laah one day Allah tunjuk :) 

Sometimes , kita just perlu pandang kehadapan kan ? Hehehe . And try to careless and it'll make you hurt less . And that's what I do . And now , I finally feel relief , SIKIT . Tp sy ttap bersyukur :) Bukan senang kan mau rasa tenang tu ? Haha , yaa laa sy mmg sedih . Tp apa boleh buat , mau sya pegy melutut cium kaki dia ? So not me , sorry :)

And to all yang buat sy rasa masih ada sebab utk truskan , thanks :) A LOT . Without you maybe nnty sy jd tmbh tekanan with this and that -.- Hmm . And even ada yang masih marah dekat sy tu , I don't care lahh , nnty sejuk juga kmu tuu . Mcm my baby ckp 'Anjing yang menyalak lama2 penat juga' Betul laa kan ? So , let time heals everything . Im just go on with the flow :)

Ada orang mengamuk ckp orang BABI ? Wow hebat mulut boy . Kau tu perfect kaa ? Well , KAU TU BUKAN TUHAN UNTUK AKU TAKUTKAN . Faham ? Kau buat orang ketawaa laa baca ap yg kau ckp tuu budak ! Hmm , biar laa kau , ckp laa apa jak pun yang buat kau happy . Ckp org mcm tu , mcm kau indaa . Mau bukti kaa sayang ? Pfffffttt -..- Nasib laa aku xkat skola tu lg :) Malas nak fikir baby ~

Well , apapun sy rasa today , this beautiful day , this last triple date , sya rsa sedikit-sebanyak bagi nafas baru dalam hidup saya :) Thanks ! And yaa , perfect life bukan mksudnyaa teda cacat celaa or probs , it shows that life's not perfect kan ? :) At least ada walau sikit . I am grateful . 

Dear 12/12/12 , thanks :)

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :) 

Life :3

Assalamualaikum and Hi

Haha . Life's always have its up and down kan ? So do mine :3

Kena benci ? Kena umpat ? Kena marah ?

Any other ? Semuaaaa tuu , I've been through :) See , I'm still alive :D

Well , even though kena benci or kena marah , sometimes for me it's a gift . Ya laa , then we'll know apa yg kita buat salah . Kan ? Kita mana salah dan silap kita .

DARIPADA ORANG YANG RASA DIA ALWAYS DISAYANGi DAN HIDUP KERJA HANYa MENINDAS ORANG AND ACT LIKE SEMUA ORG SUKA DIA PADAHAL ... ?

Kan ? Betul indaa ? Hahaha . Ya laa , mmg sedih . Tp kita kena ingat jugaa , sedih tuu just sementaraa . Mcm tuu juga HAPPY (: Dlm hidup ni , semuaaa sementara . Forever is a total lie :3 Semuaaaaaaaaa tu just kejappp jak . Jd , kalau kita tengah sedih , try lahhh cari mana silap kita tu . Sbb org takkan mrah if kita xbuat salah . Am I right ? Yaa , time tu kita akan nangis . It's normal (: Nangis doesn't mean yang kita ni lemaahh , its just that , we've been strong for so long already . Sebab tuu lah . Sebab semuaa orang ada batas dlm hidup diaa kan ? Temper , jealousy and etc semuaa tu ada limit . And it's normal laah if orng mrah kita , kita marah org . Tu lumrah kehidupan :D 

Sometimes jga , kita tau tu slah kitaa . Tp bila kita try mau perbetulkan keadaan , semuaaa mcm -.- There are always some or at least even 1 , individual yang susah mau trima benda tu . Ya laa , for example , mcm slama ni they put their whole trust on you , tp bilaa skali you made a wrong step , her trust crumpled so bad and of course , susah utk dia trima semuaa tu . It's normal . Give them times :) To think and to cool down . Klau makin dpaksa , nanti lain tu jadi . Boleh jd gaduh berabis , musuh gilaa . Nnty dr best friend , jd musuh . Memang time tu , kita akn rsa sedih and down gilaa . Heee , normal bh tu sayang (: Semua orang akan melalui benda yg sama . Semua org akan rsa , at least once dlm hdup diaa .

Then , bilaaa semua tu salah faham , try to convince them . Tell them the truth . Tp klau bnda yg sma jd , dorang xmau dengar , xlayan and all . Let them be . Sbb , if mmg kita inda salah , one day Allah akan tunjuk jugaa . Allah maha adil :) Cehhhh , tp true what right ? Hehe . If org indaa mau , kita teda hak mau paksaaa . Jd just chill maaaa . InsyaAllah , time heals everything . 

Orang selalu ckp , 

*Lek , tunggu dia sejuk dulu .

*Normal laah tu , marah .

*Ada hikmah ni , sabar jak laa .

*Go and talk to them and tell them everything .

*Live your life to the fullest bha .

Hahaha , banyak sngt pendapat org , see , bnyk org lg yg akan help you get up and cheer up your life . Sometimes jgaa , we must pretend like we're okayy :) Jgn annoy org dgn mslah kitaa , dorang adaa life jugaa :D Be the strongest girl on earth ;

*The strongest girl is who can smile and laugh in the morning like she never cry last night . 

*The strongest girl is the one who still got tears in her eyes but still able to say "naah , I'm okay"

Memang susah . Tp it's life ! Dlm hidup ni , tiada yang senang . Kerjaa pun susahh , study pun susahh . We've been in many phases in life :) Hahaha . Life is short so , make it counts !

Sy always pgg something that someone had taught me few months ago ,

'Always forgive everyone before you go to sleep'

Haha , bukan senang , tp cubaa try :3 Jujur nyaaa , until noww (dr dulu) ada satu kwn sy ni , sy pun indaa brapa dgn diaa . Benci ? Entahhh , tp sesak tuu yes :) Hahaha . Sy nda tau napa , ap yg dia buat dulu tu , smpai skg sy blum boleh trimaaa . Jujur nyaa lah . Emm , even semuaa tu sudah blalu almost years already . Tp sy maafkan diaa , but i'll never forget laa yg pnting . Skg ni pun sy layan diaa biasaa jaa . Dia baik , sy baik lah :D Hahaha . If sy benci mana pun org tuu , if dia tegur sy baik2 , sy layan dia baik2 laa . Xkan mau sy maki2 diaa kan ? Haha , dia xcari pasal bhaa . And my mum taught me dr kecil , if org baik sma kita , kita baik laa sma org tuu , if org tuu kita inda suka . Haha , yaaa , mmg sy umpat org belakang2 . Semuaa manusia pun kan ? Normal laa :3 Hahaha , and bilaaa dpn org yg sy umpat tu mmg pulaa sy sesak . Tp if dia tegur sy baik2 , sometimes sy boleh lupaa jugaa dgn bnda yg sy umpat tu kan ? Hahaha . Yaa laa , mmg nda baik pun sifat ni . Nmanyaaa hipokrit . Tp entahhh laa , mmg sy mcm ni kali sudahh :) Ya laa , no one's perfect kan ? I've found this :

Try to accept others weaknesses like others are accepting yours .

Kita indaa tau apa klemahan and kburukan dlm diri kitaa smpaii laa ad org yg bgtau , and semua yg pnah bgtau sy tu , thanks :D Hahaha . And semuaa org ad kburukan yg mmg dia inda boleh ubah sudaa , jd kita try laah trima jak . Mmg laah susahh , tp lama2 nnty , okay juga tuu . just ingat jaa la , kita ne pun ad kburukan sndiri , and org pun try accept jugaa sjaa kan ? Jd , kita pun mcm tu laa . Hahah

Okayy , enough talking nonsence . Just finished reading an article , jd tiba-tiba tringin mau tulis benda ni . LOL . Hehehe :D

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :) 

This one should be shared :)

Assalamualaikum and Hi :)

FROM USG's GROUP :)

Professor : You are a Muslim, aren’t you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor : Is GOD good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent.)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does satan come from ?

Student : From … GOD …

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer.)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer.)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theatre became very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.

Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter. )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.

P.S.

I believe you have enjoyed the conversation. And if so, you’ll probably want your friends / colleagues to enjoy the same, won’t you?

Forward this to increase their knowledge … or FAITH.

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)

Is it true ? :O

Hai :)

Once more , those love bug of mine try to poke-poke my fragile heart :D 

Nowadays , most of the boys are choosing their 'love' based on their looks . Haha . No , I'm serious okay . Well to be honest I don't have those . But its not that I'm saying I can't get married ! Hell no ! Chill ~ The purpose I'm saying this is , some girls out there are being too sarcastic about being in a relationship . Hey girl , love is like a butterfly you know . The more you chase it the more it fly away . Why don't you just stand still and in a fine time , it will come approach you and stays there on purpose . See ? 

Well , being honest again . I hate to see those desperate ladies who are try their very best just to avoid them from being single . To ease your understanding , they always wanted to have a boy friend and being single is not even an option ! What happen to most beautiful ladies these days ? Well , I know I shouldn't think or even cares about people's life . But , all the post , the status and even the tweets have drag me this vomiting phase ! 

*Oh , I'm so lonely :( I feel like dying .

*I'm jealous of them who are in a relationship . So happy and loving .

*I want to have a boy friend !

*Life is useless without my love .

Hey hey hey ladies ! Who said so ? -.- Have you sneak a peak on the other girls who have been single for so long ? Did you ask them ? Well , I'm being single for so long already and hell I'm enjoying my life sometimes even happier than those loving birds . Haha . Well hunny , you don't have to create your own dramas for your own show . Show lasts . Just live with your life in sincere and try to enjoy it . Sometimes , life is more easier when you are alone . And , sometimes it may teach you on how to appreciate those who came in your life with a genuine heart instead of a sugar coated fake people right ? When you're alone , it will make you realized the weakness you have and will guide you to overcome it . 

Allah have planned something that is much better ahead :) Just be patience and take a baby-step on the path that you are walking and don't let yourself astray .

I can't deny the jealousy felt when I saw those loving birds who seems happy each other . But most of the times , I console myself by saying "Hey , yours is ahead . Just wait" then InsyaAllah , I'll be back to normal :)

The difference between couple and friends .

Couple - He's completely yours . You can be a queen-control just because you love and care of your relationship . You can share all your tears and laughter with him . But have you ever think about 

*How long will be together ? 

*Until when is your forever ?

Well , people make mistakes . All the time . So sometimes , even a small fight could turn into a huge breakups right ? Once you get back together AGAIN , everything's change . The feelings , the moods or even the expression have change :) Haha . That is why most of the couples have made their way out of this madness and just try on a new thing instead . Soon after , cheating , finger-pointing and all other bullshits will be accompanying that once-a-sweet-relationship and it will end up to breakup . And lastly , it will sever the ties of friendship . They'll end up being somebody that they used to know ~

*Hehe . I just burst out this words doesn't mean couple is not good :P This is my blog then I can say whatever I want right ! To those who have the most lovable relationship you can go on with that . And I'll pray for your happiness :) LOL .

Friends - Well , friends are the important ingredients in the recipes of life ! I don't have much to talk about this . Love in a friendship is very loyal and sometimes its kinda cute because two people are falling in each other but they just keep those secret feels to tighten the bonds of their friendship . And why I'm saying this ? Friends are the person who knows almost everything about us , understands us and even if you're with him (friend) the whole time , it will not be a defamatory in the mouth of others instead of just having a short walk with your couples . But the tough part is when , you're in love with this friend of yours and you secretly thought he is too but one day he tells you about this girl who he has been admiring for a long time ago . It hurts . To tell you the truth , sometimes seeing the person we loved happy is the toughest love ever . You should be rewarded for having a tough heart .

All said and done . Live wisely :)

Love . Hugs . Kisses .

Bell :)